Who I really am!
Over the course of few months, I've been called all sort of things, and as I sip my coffee I had to come to realizations that I might not just be what I think I am or what one group thinks of me. I do find my self gravitating towards a huge number of subjects having specific thoughts and ideas and most importantly - to me, being opinionated about all of these. One thing no one has disagreed upon, I do have courage in voicing my opinions in ways that borders harsh rudeness at times and craziness at times. Leading me to apologize after discovering and agreeing that I might have erred on several occasions. But the good side is that these didn't happen often
Yes, it's true, I'm a backward, forward, literate, ignorant thinker.
I jump to conclusions and generalizations and I give deep thought to ideas.
I'm pro and against Hijab, niqab, shorts skirts, long skirts, short hair, long hair, breast implants, liposuction, premarital relations and conventional marriage
I'm a feminist and anti-women.
Love and hate the Arabic culture, love and hate the western culture. Fascinated and impressed by the Arabic culture and equally as appalled and unimpressed about it at the same time
I love and hate me being away from my homeland. I totally loved and hated being back for vacation
I also might be with women's liberation and imprisonment at the same time.
I'm a wise guru and a little foolish kid.
I'm an over/under achiever, an angel a devil a saint and a criminal, pro science pro religion right wing left wing center confused free thinker android. Good at following disobeying understanding missing all orders. I'm a decent misbehaving ill-mannered good/ bad/ evil/ talented/ impatient/ reluctant/ swift person
Yes, you see, I'm human, and the very bipolar nature of that comes contradictions. So why exactly am I saying all these weird things?
People fail to understand that every specific incident is worthy of decisions specifically tailored for it. No two incidents are a like and there is never a single right answer, or a single wrong answer or sometimes trivial unrelated answers. Many situations no matter how alike they might seem have absolutely different outcomes when the very same steps are followed. Weird, but the world is a non causal system. It would have been a much simpler existence if it just followed the rules .. all the time
No matter how we rationalize matters they could never be put in a strong formula format where inputs and outputs are always calculated. No matter how hard we dive into something we will always miss some constant on either side of an equation
So there you have it, I'm at the end .... human.. nothing more ... nothing less