Priorities In Affairs..

Last Sepetember, my best friend (R) who lives in Dubai sent me mail asking to give Mr.X, a close friend to her husband, a chance to get closer to me since he's searching a life partner aside from being well known for his distinctive character & graceful reputation, as local saying in Arabic "El shab ma 3aleh gabra". So, he is serious gentleman & I don't mind to give us this chance to know each other.

One of the main obstacles was being resident in UAE, so we had to exchange video conversations, chats, emails and phone calls.

Honestly, I can say that we were going ahead positively, but at the same time I was careful a little bit keeping in mind I have to be rational not driven only by emotions, because still there is possibility not liking each other in reality aside being too sensitive & I don't want anyone to get hurt.

At begining of October, he left his job... started searching for another one. We have agreed to meet in the last Eid Elfitr when he got back to Amman. I totally understood the new unexpected conditions & agreed to shift the meeting till upcoming Eid Eladha advising him that time is meaningless when it comes to finding treasure respectful people.

So, I kept supporting him without giving up at all, he told me that he has his own personal dream of not getting back home till he performed, he was looking forward to buying a home (already did), a car and marriage cost (halfly achieved).

The sitiuation becomes like that; all what he has now 4000 JD & he was ready to waste the whole amount till finding the new job, there is a risk to be adventurous staying jobless wasting all what he owns till the last penny or getting back home keeping what he has & proposed for engagement, he adopted the first alternative, meanwhile I was still totally supportive & respectful of his choices asserting that If he faced bad luck, specially I am working young woman with very good income comparing with high expenses in Jordan, I'd still be helpful.

During this time, two gentlemen proposed to me in a tradition way contacting my family (I believe in this way ;)), but I did not go through any, first of all I gave my promise to Mr.X, second I am not type of person who puting myself or others people in comparing sitiuation.

Actually, he appreciated all what I did for him, nominating me his Queen & keep swearing that he could not find good girl like me since he feels I am his soul mate and he could not imagine his life without me! Once, he asked me If I recieved serious proposal fot marriage and If It's like that, he's is ready to get back Jordan since still he can do something and check possibilities If we can bind officially, but I told him that currently his future is most important than me.

First week of November he did find a new job... The salary was humble one like the one in Jordan, also he has to be charged for renting house and paying residance fees, ya3ni bel 3arabi saving ZERO, in spite of all above I encouraged him to accept since he will get familiar to new experience and there is highly possibility to be promoted, highlighting if the sitiuation getting worse I'll stay supportive in all cases.

In 19 November 2006, he disappeared suddenly without any excuse advising me that we need to talk and so we did. Without introductions listen Y, I could not come back before 9 months for residance rules, so go and see your future, stressing that we have to think right and choose between what we have to do & what we like to do.

I got his point of view and respected his choice without discussion wishing him the best in his life since objectively he's good person, but what hurts deep is that (not 2no tar el 3arees lol as common saying ) but the fact that he put me in comparison with material stuff, car & collecting money. He replaced a good person (excuse me for being proud of myself here) with that, while I was not at all searching for my private interest.

The most apparent diffrence is like, I believe that making money can be anytime anywhere, but finding good people happens not everyday, he was ready to burn 4000 JD for zero result but he's not ready to take risk of leaving what he has now for knowing good life partner.

I don't have the right to judge him or to check who is right or wrong, but I think we have to strike a balance between what we like to do and what we have to do.

The lesson from this experience that Priorities has to be common between any two searching for partners. Also, in my simple point of view the most important thing in successful relations not disappointing the other partner, It's not wealth, fire emotions, diamonds or just sweet words but this "Please don't disappoint me!".

Now, he thinks If I'm still single when he got back I'll agree to discuss the matter again, but becuase who left me now will do later, who preffered money will not be changed after marriage, I don't feel secure If we got married cause the feeling of replacing me and kids with this again will not be good choice.

Of course my article will not be objective since you have to listen to the other point of view.

I have deep believe that God chooses the best for me, and I am narrating every details of what happened to help any may read this or to free negative energy after all.

I am getting back now to my peaceful lovely life, decorating my office with flowers, taking care of my golden fish and dancing at morning before starting new good day.

I don't feel too upset to go over this, since It was a friendship stage without deep feeling or meeting in reality beside being optemestic alhamdulillah.

Special thanks for my Mom, my little cute brother Yanal(he is my nurse lol), Tamara, Halil, Dana and of course Memories Documented for giving me this precious space to express freely.

I still respect you Mr. X & wishing you the best, but excuse me our choices are diffrent,Good luck for all.. ;)

Red Rose

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